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25 March 2007 @ 08:42 am
I'M IN COSTA RICA RIGHT NOW!!! HECK YES!!!!
 
 
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23 December 2006 @ 04:28 pm
I can play Mary had a Little Lamb on Trumpet! HOORAY!
 
 
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20 November 2006 @ 10:46 pm
Guess what I did today?

I served a detention.

Heck yes.
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
11 April 2006 @ 03:33 pm
Wow. It's amazing. How much competition there is. You don't believe me? You should.

If someone says something, somebody always has to come back with something better.
If someone wants to be mean to someone, then someone will just try to beat them at being mean.
If someone says something nice, people try to come back with something nicer.
If someone flirts with someone, somebody else that likes that person flirts harder.
If someone punches someone, that person punches them back harder.


Just a couple examples. Why all the competition? Maybe we are defending ourselves, maybe we aren't. I don't understand it. How can something cause so much competition? Haven't people ever heard of letting things go? Just not worrying about it. Maybe someone is having a mood swing. They shouldn't be held responsible (sometimes) for everything all the time. Now if they do it often, I can understand. If they do it just a couple times a month, or even a little more, I don't think it's all that big of a deal. Maybe you'll are lost by now, I don't know. Just something I've been observing. Everyone is competitive, I just didn't realize it was THIS bad. Wow. People say that high schoolers and other people of the sort should stop the drama. Well, the problem is, these types of people can't because they are competitive. I'm not saying that this is all blame on one person or that I am perfect, but it's something everyone has to deal with. Everyone has the "disease", if that's what you want to call it. Everywhere you look, there will always be drama. Some people just know how to deal with it more than others. They let it go and realize it's just a part of life that we have to get used to.

We all have ability. The difference is how we use it. -Stevie Wonder
 
 
Current Mood: restless
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
09 April 2006 @ 03:29 pm
Wow. It's been quite a week. I get it. I know everything now. I'm finally in view of the whole ocean. Well, I'll just call it an ocean:P.

Baby bunnies. I love my baby bunnies. I can't believe someone would hate them. Not that anyone does, but you will fall in love with my babies when/if you ever see them. They are adorable. I wish they could stay with me (and the size they are) everywhere. They are the cutest little animals in the world! I don't know how I will ever give them up, but I won't think that far ahead. I'll stick to the next 5 weeks I have with them. I love them so much!

Animals are the only living things that seem to capture my heart:P. Humans are just too...
...I can't think of a good word for humans...

This week, I've felt so much happier. I know why now. I'm not going to tell you though. Part of the reason why is because it's spring! I actually found out that I miss physical education too! I love it. Sarah and I played soccer on Friday, although I didn't run after the ball (my knees were killing me), it was awesome! I just...wow. I know why I'm happy. I just feel soo on top of the world right now. It's amazing:D.

I think I'll end this somewhat short today. I'm feeling very good. I think I'll go make some pants before I head off to work. Have the best rest of the day you possibly can because you deserve it!

(See, I'm in too good of a mood.:D)

The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts. -Marcus Aurelius
 
 
Current Mood: cheerful
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
02 April 2006 @ 03:08 pm
quiz  
Jung Test Results


Introverted (I) 56.67% Extroverted (E) 43.33%
Intuitive (N) 51.16% Sensing (S) 48.84%
Thinking (T) 52.78% Feeling (F) 47.22%
Judging (J) 70.59% Perceiving (P) 29.41%
Your type is: INTJ

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.

Enneagram Test Results

The Enneagram is a personality system which divides the entire human personality into nine behavioral tendencies, this is your score on each...

Type 1    Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||| 36%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||| 53%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||| 50%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||| 53%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 46%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||| 36%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||| 70%
type score type behavior motivation
1 26  I must be perfect and good to be happy.
2 23  I must be helpful and caring to be happy.
9 21  I must be peaceful and easy to get along with to be happy.

You scored as Type 1
Your variant is social
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
22 March 2006 @ 08:43 pm

Happiest color out there right now. Well, I like purple at least. I know most of you are headed out for choir and stuff, so you won't read this until like Wednesday next week, if even, but I thought I'd share this all anyways.

Tons of crap has been on my mind. Today has been a rough day, but I only have to really say one thing. Maybe more...lol

NO MORE WAITING!

That's right folks! I have SEVEN BABY BUNNIES! They were born yesterday, (Tuesday, March 21, 2006) and I couldn't be happier. They look so pretty! I have pictures for you if you like. First I have to figure out how to get them on here. Once I do, I will have a million pictures (not just of my baby bunnies, but of other things too) on here. I am so happy right now, and forever more.
There is also a rabbit show Saturday.
And I found out there is a rabbit show NEXT SATURDAY AS WELL!
BOO YEAH!

Why can't you be happier.

Becci, where were you today? I didn't get to tell you the good news myself! That is utterly disappointing, but you found out now:D.

Anyways, I could keep blabbling, but there's not use. I'm sad that like over half my friends are leaving for choir, but I guess that's ok. I still can't believe they are leaving. Anyways, someone else is leaving too. I got to make an entry for you Molly...someday. lol

I'm picking up Mocha on Friday so I can show him on Saturday.

Last thing...I'm going to need seven baby names now! Tell me any thoughts PLEASE. I do like them to be related to food (not all the time) and related to the color yellow/gold. So far I have Colby, Chedder, Butterscotch, Peanut, and (which I probably won't use) Mustard. Any more names for me? Please post your ideas! I need some. If you also like a name or something, put that too! I love you guys...lol

Some people dream success...while others wake up and work hard at it. -Unknown

 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
15 March 2006 @ 06:37 pm
The title is not what it seems. If you were allowed to read my last entry, and did read it, well, I'm way different. Being a teenager sucks (and is good). Your emotions run so hay wire. I did write that poem. I did feel like that. No more questions asked because what is says in there is true to my knowledge. Also, I am feeling so different right now, you'd think I'm bipolar because of my mood extremes. Maybe I am, but I haven't been diagnosed with it yet:D.

Anyways, part of the reason I am feeling better is the eye doctor. I thought I had given up all hope of being able to see "perfectly" again. He couldn't figure out what was wrong with my contacts since I was seeing 20/15 already. I told him something was wrong. He tweaked with my left eye, which helped, but not enough. I still felt like I couldn't see perfectly. There was still some blurriness in the back. I am near sighted if you didn't know. That means you can't see far away the greatest. He looked at my eyes again today and came up with something. It made me so happy and hopeful that I can't wait to try the new contacts he gave me tomorrow (I figured I'd save the excitement for tomorrow:D). What he said actually made me feel special. He asked me to read this really tiny line. So I tried, and I couldn't remember the letter o (although I did know it was that letter that looked like 0...lol). Anyways, I got like one of them wrong, and I almost said the letter it actually was. Anyways, what that means, is I can actually see 20/10. He said only 1 in a hundred people would be able to read that line. He said I wasn't seeing perfectly because I was only seeing 20/15, and I am capable of seeing 20/10, which is why it was still kinda fuzzy for me. That made me so happy. I always knew I had good eyes, but this just makes me feel better altogether. I felt like dancing out of the building, but I didn't:P. lol

I'm not going to bring up why I felt like crap, it might overtake me.

Ok, so I'm actually looking forward to writing this basic comp paper. I'm excitied. I feel like I'm discovering myself, which is very weird. I guess I never knew myself all that great. I shouldn't be thinking so much and putting so much into this paper/essay thing, but it's just fun to me. I like writing. I haven't written in a while, which could be why I'm liking this. I feel kinda free. I feel like I'm expressing myself. Just to think, it's just a stupid paper.

My basic comp class also has like 35ish people in it. All the tables are filled and one person has to sit on the floor. Quite funny.

As you can see, this entry is far different from my other ones. I believe that I am being myself for once. I believe that I have all this in me. I think I was putting on a mask before. I didn't feel like I was putting on a mask, but I see now that I was. I'm not going to hide it anymore. I'm going to embrace it. This is me. If you don't like it, good for you. You know what else? I've decided to start over. No more dwelling on the past events. No more looking ahead (well, not a WHOLE lot...lol). Thinking to good things. I feel like this is it. I feel so good. Almost too good. Actually, there is never a too good. I'm almost crying to be so good. Anyways, something I mean is, I'm not going to hate. I found out after trying to clarify my reasons for disliking some people, there are no reasons at all. I am starting over. Not all over, just partially over. I suppose you could say I'm starting all over, but, oh well. I give up. You win. I feel like...watching a disney movie. Last night I watched the Little Mermaid. I can't believe it's been so long...

I'm not going to waste my life anymore. I'm actually going to take action this time. Obviously I wasn't being myself if people expected something out of me, and I didn't do it. Obviously I WAS being myself when I expected something out of myself, but it didn't happen. I am a perfectionist. The end. There is nothing more said. I was not brought up this way. I did not choose this way. I am this way. I am a perfectionist. I can't help it and neither can you.

The end.

We all have ability. The difference is how we use it. -Stevie Wonder
 
 
Current Mood: enlightened
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
24 February 2006 @ 11:17 pm
Introverted (I) 51.35% Extroverted (E) 48.65%
Sensing (S) 51.43% Intuitive (N) 48.57%
Thinking (T) 53.85% Feeling (F) 46.15%
Judging (J) 65.71% Perceiving (P) 34.29%

Your type is: ISTJ

ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population.

 



 


Enneagram Test Results

The Enneagram is a personality system which divides the entire human personality into nine behavioral tendencies, this is your score on each...

Type 1    Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 53%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||| 46%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||| 46%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||| 60%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||| 50%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||| 66%

type score type behavior motivation
1 22  I must be perfect and good to be happy.
5 20  I must be knowledgable and independent to be happy.
9 20  I must be peaceful and easy to get along with to be happy.
7 19  I must be high and entertained to be happy.
6 18  I must be secure and safe to be happy.

You scored as Type 1
Your variant is social
 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
24 February 2006 @ 04:02 pm

Here's an email my cousin sent me. It's quite funny:D.

>>
>>FROM A FARM KID, NOW AT SAN DIEGO MARINE CORPS RECRUIT DEPOT.
>>
>>
>>Dear Ma and Pa:
>>I am well. Hope you are. Tell Brother Walt and Brother Elmer the
>>Marine Corps beats working for old man Minch by a mile. Tell
>>them to join up quick before maybe all of the places are filled.
>>
>>I was restless at first because you got to stay in bed till
>>nearly 6 a.m., but am getting so I like to sleep late.
>>
>>Tell Walt and Elmer all you do before breakfast is smooth your
>>cot and shine some things. No hogs to slop, feed to pitch, mash
>>to mix, wood to split, fire to lay. Men got to shave but it is
>>not so bad, there's warm water.
>>
>>Breakfast is strong on trimmings like fruit juice, cereal, eggs,
>>bacon, etc, but kind of weak on chops, potatoes, ham, steak,
>>fried eggplant, pie and other regular food, but tell Walt and
>>Elmer you can always sit by the two city boys that live on
>>coffee. Their food plus yours holds yo! u till noon when you get
>>fed again.
>>
>>It's no wonder these city boys can't walk much. We go on "route
>>marches", which the platoon sergeant says are long walks to
>>harden us. If he thinks so, it's not my place to tell him
>>different. A "route march" is about as far as to our mailbox at
>>home. Then the city guys get sore feet and we all ride back in
>>trucks. The country is nice but awful flat.
>>
>>The sergeant is like a school teacher. He nags a lot.
>>The Capt. is like the school board. Majors and colonels just
>>ride around and frown. They don't bother you none.
>>
>>This next will kill Walt and Elmer with laughing. I keep getting
>>medals for shooting. I don't know why. The bulls-eye is near as
>>big as a chipmunk head and don't move, and it ain't shooting at
>>you like the Higgett boys at home. All you got to do is lie
>>there all comfortable and hit it You don't even load your own
>>cartridges. They come in boxes.
>>
>>Then we have what they call hand-to hand combat training! .
>>You get to wrestle with them city boys. I have to be real
>>careful though, they break real easy. It ain't like fighting
>>with that ole bull at home. I'm about the best they got in this
>>except for that Tug Jordan from over in Silver Lake. I only beat
>>him once. He joined up the same time as me, but I'm only 5'6"
>>and 130 pounds, and he's 6'8" and weighs near 300 pounds dry.
>>
>>Be sure to tell Walt and Elmer to hurry and join before other
>>fellers get onto this setup and come stampeding in.
>>
>>Your loving daughter,
>>Gail.
>>


I suppose I'll update some now for you since I haven't for like...forever.

 
 
See through a person's eyes to their heart
19 February 2006 @ 11:00 am
I can tell I haven't updated in a while, all this rich text form is so weird and alienish to me. hah. I will tell you more later when I haven't been on the computer forever, but for now, I'll just give you this quiz thing I took. It's interesting. Pretty much pretended to be 18 so I could take it. hehe.
the Peacemaker
Test finished!
you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

 

"I am at peace"

 

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

  • If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
  • I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advatage of this.
  • Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
  • Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
  • Ask me questions to help me get clear.
  • Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
  • Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
  • I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
  • Let me know you like what I've done or said.
  • Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine

  • being nonjudgmental and accepting
  • caring for and being concerned about others
  • being able to relax and have a good time
  • knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
  • my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
  • my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
  • being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine

  • being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
  • being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
  • being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
  • being confused about what I really want
  • caring too much about what others will think of me
  • not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often

  • feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
  • tune out a lot, especially when others argue
  • are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents

  • are supportive, kind, and warm
  • are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

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    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    12 February 2006 @ 02:13 pm

    There is only one point to this entry.

    Kristen...you better be up and ready for school by 7:20ish tomorrow because I'm coming to pick you up in the morning! (sorry it's kinda like...early, but I couldn't help it.) I got you a present today! Well, most of it:D.

    Oh...side note, anybody know if symphonic band is supposed to be at cis at 8 tomorrow morning?

    Continuous effort, not strength or intelligence is the key to unlocking our potential. -Liane Cardes

     
     
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    The rabbit show has ended. The next one is March 25. I'm glad to be getting a break for a while, but some pretty awesome things did happen yesterday:D.

    Heather and I woke up around 5:45 to eat breakfast and get all of her rabbits together. Stuck mine and hers in the truck. I thought it was funny that I brought 6 cages for rabbits, and she had 8, but at the end of the day I had nine and she had 8. Yes my rabbits only took up 4 of the spots. lol. Anyways, I'll get back to that a little later.

    So, right away, my day was off to a bad start. I broke my damn lawn chair. I know you aren't supposed to force something to do stuff for you, but, the dang chair just would not open for some reason. For that reason, I MADE it open. Ended up breaking it of course. It still kinda works...just doesn't recline the best or anything. Oh well. Boo who.

    Well, Heather and I walked around looking at all the rabbits. Found some palominos for sale, lynx and golden. I thought that was cool, so I was thinking about getting one. (If you don't know, I have 2 girl palominos-Honey and Caramel, and 1 boy-Cheerios). I have three cages, and I wanted to get rid of Caramel and Honey, then buy a different doe and breed her to Cheerios here soonish, but the palominos I saw were older, and older rabbits have a harder time getting breed right. Which is why the reason I wanted to get rid of mine. Anyways, we also saw some Creme D' Argents, which I was hoping to get because they are really awesome looking. Then we found some Cinnamons, which are cool. Heather was going to get one, but they were $40 a piece. She gave that hope up. However, Missy (Heather's sister, my cousin as well) had $70 and she was hoping to start showing rabbits (she's only 9). She was going to get some Havannas because those are also cool looking, but she ended up getting 2 of the Cinnamons, so she'll breed those a little later. She got a deal too, both of them for $60. Not bad.

    Anyways, so it's like 9 and Jersey Woolies are called for this one table, so we go over there since that's the breed of rabbit my cousin has. We didn't go right away because there are TONS of jersey woolies, so we knew it'd be like 3 hours before her variety (color) gets shown. Plus they did open class first. She went over there around 10, and didn't end up showing till about 12. I walked around, did nothing really. lol. Waited for Klubertanz to open so I could buy some stuff. Heather walked around while I sat with her rabbits seeing if they'd get called yet. Then I went and bought a 3-hold carrier, standard of perfection, and some other stuff from Klubertanz because they finally opened. Heather got done about then. She said she didn't win anything. One of hers got 3/7, which was good I guess. The other ones got like 8/8 and 7/8 or something like that. We went back to "home base" and ate some lunch. Wondered when Palominos would be called since they are usually called at like 10, and it was like 12:30ish now. Went and seen all the rabbits again. We heard earlier that day that there were about 1600 rabbits there. That was exciting. lol.

    This part I'll explain the judging...kinda. So they go by age and gender first (inside the same variety and breed). So they judge all the senior bucks (which would be boys over 8 months old). There is also senior does, junior bucks/does (under 6 months old) and intermediate bucks/does (between 6-8 months old). The groups vary for breeds, but that's basically it for most (including Palominos). Then if you get first out of your class (which would be like I just mention), ex. senior buck, you go to the next round. At the next round, you go against all the other firsts in the class, so like the best senior buck, best senior doe, best junior buck, best junior doe, best intermediate doe, and best intermediate buck all go against each other for the best in variety. If the senior buck wins out of all of them, then he gets BOV (best of variety). Then say the best doe out of that bunch was the senior doe, she gets best of opposite sex. After that, then you go onto best of breed. Thats where the best of all the varietys go against each other for the best of breed (BOB-obviously). They don't do the opposite sex thing for this catagory though. Whichever rabbit wins best of breed, they get to go onto best of six/four class (bigger rabbits tend to be six class, littlier rabbits tend to be four class). Anyways, they whichever one gets best of six/four class, competes with the other best of four/six class to see who gets best of show. There is your rabbit lesson for the day.

    Anyways, so Palominos finally got called. I went up to the table, and since there are only two varietys of pals, it doesn't take but 10 minutes for my rabbits to show. Besides, one variety is hardly ever seen or showed, which is the lynx variety. It was in fact there yesterday, but they didn't show. FYI, I have golden pals. So there is only 5 rabbits competing for the palominos, 3 of them being mine. lol. (They are kind of a rare breed.) My lone boy was the only senior buck and he didn't get DQed:D. That was good. Then my two girls were both senior does, and the only ones in their class. Neither one of them got DQed either! (Mine usually get DQed for being underweight, and it's NOT because I don't feed them. It's because they don't eat). Anyways that made me excited already. Caramel ended up beating Honey, which I thought she would. Honey got 2/2 then. Better than DQ is what I say. lol. Then It was the other buck and doe against Cheerios and Caramel for best of variety. That also means that Whoever gets best of variety gets best of breed because there wasn't any lynx being shown. Well, Cheerios and the other buck were close, the two judges spent a long time looking at the both of them. Then they picked up both girls and didn't really spend a long time looking at them. After that, he picked up Caramel and the other buck (which meant he was looking for best of breed now). Caramel ended up getting it! It was so exciting. Cheerios didn't get best of opposite sex though:(. Oh well, Caramel got BEST OF BREED! It was so awesome. That's the first time Heather or I have ever gotten BOB! It was pretty sweet. I figured I wouldn't do good in the best of six class, but at least I got a chance:D. BOO YEAH! lol. I was right, I didn't win six class, neither did Chris Meshke who had a Champagne D' Argent up for best six class. The french lop ended up getting best of six class. Darn. lol.

    But, this means Caramel ALMOST got a leg (which is like an invisible trophy). It would make her worth more if I sell her. Well, I got pretty excited and decided I wasn't going to sell Caramel now, but Honey was still on my selling list. Then Heather and I found out they had showmanship. Fun stuff. So we signed up for that. We were the only ones in the senior group. lol. We went down to the raffle where we saw that 5 rabbits were on the raffle. Of course Heather and I put in for all of them. I also put in for the Klubertanz giftcards. The raffle was to be held at like 2, so we walked around yet again. hehe. We stopped at the lady with the Creme D' Argents and asked her about them since I was really hoping to get one. She said she didn't have any for sell because she just started raising them. I asked her if she'd be breeding them any time soon, and if she'd sell me one of the babies. She said she could do that, so I got happy:D. She's going to be at the Austin rabbit show on March 25, and so I'll see her there hopefully:D. She was an awesome lady, so hopefully I'll be getting a Creme D' Argent here in about 3 months! So exciting. I don't know if she's going to breed them anytime soon, but 3 months will be the minimum for me to wait. YAY!

    Then Heather and I walked around more. We studied a little bit for showmanship. lol. We actually didn't end up competing because they didn't have it at 2:45 like they said they were going to. We didn't feel like waiting anymore for that. We of course were still excited it was finally rabbit show day, and how could anyone get bored? I don't know. We walked down to here the raffle, see if we won anything. We got there right in time for the good stuff. Heather ended up winning some food trays type things before we got there, but Forest (her dad, my uncle) picked them up for her. Then right when we got there, I heard MY name being called for winning something. So I'm like, cool that's me! What did I win? (I didn't know what item they were on...lol) They are like, you won that jersey woolie! I'm like really? I won a rabbit? COOL! It was awesome. So I got a pretty little fuzzy boy that I have yet to name. Missy also ended up winning TWO of the remaining FOUR rabbits. That is so weird. That doesn't usually happen. lol. She didn't win the dutches (but we are dutch fans, so that's ok), so won a jersey woolie and a satin. Pretty awesome bunnies. I like mine the best. He's really pretty. Thank gosh I have enough space for all my rabbits. lol.

    That left us with selling 0 of like the 8 rabbits we were hoping to sell. This also means that we got like 5 new rabbits? Something like that. And 3 new spots to put some in. Missy ended up holding her jersey woolie on the way home, and I held mine. He feels so tiny compared to my pals. My Palominos are like 8 pounds, 9 pounds, 10 pounds, somewhere in that range, and this little jersey woolie is only like 2-3 pounds. lol. Big difference. It feels so weird having my own jersey woolie, because that's what Heather raises. She was going to breed my bunny with one of hers before I left, but then she thought it was a bad idea since she was going to sell all her jersey woolies and start buying/breeding angoras now. Fun stuff. Anyways, I've had quite a weekend! I will update more on what I did with Heather last night (since I didn't come home until today) and what happened this morning with our "mascot", who is so awesome! It was funny, but this is long enough, I'll leave you to be.

    By the way, my new bunny needs a name! If you have any ideas, post them. He is a smoke pearl martin jersey woolie. That means he's gray/white with a yellow head and dark gray ears. He is so cool looking! So far his name is Mocha until I come up with something else. :D

    The past is a guidepost, not a hitching post. -Thomas Holcroft

     
     
    Current Mood: worn out, but happy
     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    31 December 2005 @ 01:57 pm

    More of my wonderful story. Have fun, there is still more to come don't worry!

    "No! You have to call Richard at work and tell him what happened. I know you will have a strong voice and will know what to say to him. Ok?"

    "Sure, but then I’m going to the hospital."

    "Ok, but make sure you call him first. Love you lots, and never leave me April, you’re my one of a kind sister. Bye."

    "Ok, bye." I hung up the phone and could not think of how I was going to tell Richard. He was also one that inherited my father’s trait of lacking emotion. You could tell him his girlfriend died and he would be sad, but wouldn’t show any sadness in his face. He was like me, a non-emotional kid.

    Ok, I thought to myself. I have to do this. Jessica told me to, and Richard needs to know what has happed as soon as possible. I did not want to believe it, but I had to. My sister would never lie to me.

    "Hi, is Richard there?" I asked trying to sound confident in my question.

    "Hold on a sec," Josh replied. I could tell it was Josh because he has this really low tone of voice, and he speaks very, very slowly.

    "Hello?" Richard said into the phone.

    "Um, Richard? I called to tell you, um," I just could believe what had just happened. "Do you think you could come home right now?"

    "I’m kinda working right now."

    "Yeah, I know, but this is super important, I promise."

    "I’ll see what I can do."

    "If you can’t come home, then call me so I can tell you what happened."

    "What happened? What in the world are you talking about?"

    "You just need to come home." That felt like a demanding statement, but he did need to come home.

    "Fine, I’ll be there in five minutes."

    "Thanks!" I really had to write my thoughts down. If I did not, then I would forget what even happened.

    As I grabbed a piece of paper, the doorbell rang. I thought, who in the heck would come here, at this time of day? I was not sure if I should answer it, so I decided to leave it. Then I started having second thoughts, what if that’s Richard already? I should go answer it.

     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    27 December 2005 @ 09:39 am

    More of that story. I'm going to post little bits at a time so that it will prolong your wondering...well...hopefully. This is just one more page. I think I might be almost half way done with posting after this one.

    I thought I should do something besides just wait for them to come home, but I could not think of anything to do. Besides, I knew if I just sat there and waited, my mom would be furious at me. I thought maybe I should do my three page essay that was due tomorrow, but Jessica usually helps me with that. I had no idea how to even begin, that is when I need Jessica the most. She is the best older sister you could ever possibly want-she is smart, beautiful, popular, has tons of friends, and can sweet talk my mom out of about anything (something I was born to never try). She probably was the only one in the family that was well respected by my mom. My mom never really cared much for us kids, only really Jessica. She "planned" for us, but it seemed she did not want us anymore. Now she relies on Jessica, her favorite, to take care of the family until we all leave.

    As I attempted to do my homework, I was interrupted with the phone ringing. I picked it up. It was Jessica. She called to see if I was awake yet because she knows I love sleeping in. Then her voice suddenly turned from happy to sad. Then she stuttered to say, "We had an accident on the way to the hospital. The brake fluid ran out, so the brakes stopped working, and as I tried to stop, a jeep came crashing into us. It hit us right where Mom was sitting. The good news is she isn’t dead. The bad news is she is helpless for about a year. She broke a lot of bones, and they are serious, but will heal in time."

    "Everyone else is ok, right? Mom’s the only one hurt, right?" I tried not to squeak those words out, but I could not help it. I cared about everybody in my family, except my mom.

    "Well..." she said starting to cut off.

    "Well what? I can handle the news, I am fifteen you know. I know how to handle stuff."

    "No. Mom is bad, but Jacob is worse. He was sitting right behind Mom and also got hit. He died on impact."

    "You mean..."

    "Yes, we don’t have twins anymore. We just have one little brother with bruises all over him."

    "But," I just could not believe what I was hearing. She must have pulled a joke on me or something. I had nothing to say except, "Anna Maria, she is ok, isn’t she?"

    "Yes, but she is crippled from the accident. She will never walk again."

    "I’m going to come down there, ok?"

     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    23 December 2005 @ 05:41 pm

    I feel like finally putting one of my stories on here. In other words, here is the first 3 pages of my (so far 10 page) story. This one I wrote for English in 8th grade or something. Anyways, haven't continued it in a while, but I'm writing another one right now. lol. I have about 4 going;). Here is the very first:D.

    "April!" yelled my mother. She was waiting for me to get in the car and go to my dad’s funeral. I usually do not listen to her, but I did because it was for my dad. Besides, I was suppose to give a eulogy about him and how I would remember him.

    "I’m coming," I called back as I walked slowly down the old dusty stairs. I know I probably should have been hurrying down the stairs, but I just had to walk slow. It seemed as if my body was telling me to take my time, because I needed it.

    "What took you so long?" asked Anna Maria as I entered the car.

    "I’m sorry, I almost forgot the paper with my speech on it for the ceremony," I replied, even though I had already memorized it.

    "Well, do you have it now?" she questioned rudely.

    "Yes, right here," as I took out a different piece of paper from my purse. I hate to lie to anyone, especially to people in my family, but nobody needed to know that I was just taking my time.

    On the way to the church, I kept thinking about how I could express my feelings while giving the speech. I am not a person that loves to show my emotions, but I wanted people to know how sad I was. Unlike my family, that would probably be crying through the whole thing, a tear might not even start to form in my eye. I guess I took after my dad, and they took after my mom.

    I was right. By the time we arrived, everyone was in tears, but I just could not see the point of crying because he was already gone and we could not change that now. Besides, I am sure he will always watch over us like a guardian angel.

    As I was walking up the aisle, I was not scared at all. I knew everyone would know I did the best I could to write the eulogy, so I had nothing to fear. I did not even care about what people thought about me or my family, or what my family thought about me. I started out by clearing my throat, then saying:

    Everyone who is here knew my dad. Everyone knew he was a great guy. Maybe something you didn’t know was he wasn’t only my dad, but my best friend. He wasn’t like my mom, always yelling at me or telling me to do stuff. Instead he encouraged me to be the best person I could be. When I was little he use to say, ‘Never blame yourself for something you couldn’t prevent’. I always got confused by this saying, but I think I finally figured it out. I think he meant that if you blame yourself for something that happened, when you had no control over it, then it wasn’t your fault. You shouldn’t feel that if you had done something differently, things would have turned out better. If it’s done, it’s done. Once something happens, you can’t change a thing about it. I know everyone who is here, thinks it was their fault that my dad, Jack Severson, died. It was no one’s fault. No body is responsible for his heart attack. Not even the people that helped him to try to live. You were the ones that just happened to be there when he died. All that’s in the past. We have to move on. I know it’s hard, but if everyone helps each other, all of us will move on, even me.

    I guess I had a good eulogy because everyone was on there feet clapping, crying, and I think, even moving on. Well that is everyone, except my mom. She looked at me like I had told the whole world our life sucked and it was all her fault. Her face turned red with anger. I guess she missed him so much, and hated me for saying she yells a lot. I knew she would not get mad at me right now, because everyone would hear her yelling at me. No, she would definitely wait until morning.

    When the funeral was over, everyone thought I did a good job on the eulogy. Then they all went home one by one, until finally, our family left. On the way home everybody sitting in the old ford was as quiet as the deep blue sea. The only sound that was heard was the roaring of the rusty old engine. I noticed that this night seemed to have the most stars in it I had ever seen. It seemed as though each star represented a soul that had left this Earth. That night I even saw a new star. One I had never seen before. I think it was my dad’s star.

    "April?" Anna Maria asked in a tired and sadden voice.

    "Yes?" I said trying to sound awake because I had already started to fall asleep.

    "Why don’t you ever cry? It’s like you’re never sad." She started to glare at me, "Not even when Dad died, you aren’t sad? Not even a little bit. Why?"

    "I’m sad, but," I could not find words for my thoughts, "but, you won’t understand why I am sad but don’t look it, until you’re older. It’s just very hard to describe in words."

    "I’m a smart eleven year old. Don’t you think I’ll understand?"

    "I don’t even understand, so you definitely won’t. Please, just wait until you get older. We’ve all had such a long day, so let’s get some rest. Ok?" I had such a confusing life. No one ever understood me, not even me. I knew if I had tried to explain it to her, she would just make the whole thing worse by not understanding. It was also getting late, and we were all tired, so I decided to sleep the rest of the way home.

    I awoke the next morning expecting to hear Jessica making breakfast, but I heard nothing. Then I remembered I slept in the car the night before, and it is hard to hear noise from outside our house, so I did not bother to worry. I started to stroll to the house picking daisies as I walked by them, hoping that if I gave them to my mom, she would forget about what I said yesterday at the funeral. I walked in the house and it was quiet. I noticed before I came in, Richard’s and Jessica’s cars were gone, but I figured it must be late and they probably had already went to work. This was not the same kind of quiet you hear at my house when they are gone. I did not hear Anna Maria complaining to my mom about how gross the twins, Jacob and Nick, were. I started to get suspicious. I walked into the kitchen and no one was there. I ran to the living room, also empty. Then I went back to the kitchen to check the time. The clock said two o’clock in the afternoon. Wow, I over slept a lot. Then I spotted a note on the counter. It read: Dear April,

    Sorry we missed you this morning, but the twins needed to go the emergency room right away because they were messing around outside and stepped on some nails. We didn’t want to disturb you, so we went in my car. Richard has already left for work and will be back at seven tonight.

    Hopefully we will be back soon,

    Jessica

    That was all the letter said. So that is why no one is cooking breakfast and no one is here. I guess I had missed a lot, but why were they not home yet? Was it that bad? I tried not to think about it because I knew my brothers were tough and would be ok. They always got in trouble and were always fine. This time would be no different.

     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    01 December 2005 @ 03:54 pm
    So, I just realized I forgot to hand in a packet for my speech final. What an idiot I am.
     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    03 November 2005 @ 03:51 pm

    GUESS WHAT EVERYONE! January 28th is the very first RABBIT SHOW of the new year!:D Yes, I'm already starting that up. If you don't know what I'm talking about, just ask Nate how many times I told him about the first rabbit show last year. lol. Anyways, I did not update because of that. I'm updating for some various reasons, which I suppose I will now state for you.

    I found out how to edit my friends on here and what not. Guess what that means? I'm going to spend hours picking colors for everyone! lol. It also means my entries will now be more private, directed to the three people that I actually talk to in school. I'll still make some not as private messages for the other friends I have on here though. I just feel not everyone needs to know everything.

    Oh my gosh! Best speech class so far, I've got to say, that class keeps me entertained. Mrs. Knode talked about how speech is important and what not. For like half the hour she told us all these funny stories. Various ones were of her talking out of a speeding ticket, like saying, (cop said: what if a kid was going to cross the road. What the heck were you thinking going that fast?) her response, I would have stopped for a kid! lol. She had run the cop off the road basically while speeding. lol. Then she made up the best story. Wow. If you want to know it, just come ask me. I may not be as entertaining as I don't seem to be able to tell anything funny these days, but you'll understand...hopefully. lol.

    Next up, homeroom. lol. I have tons of tootsies in my locker. Ashley forgot to bring treats for homeroom. Grand how I had treats in my locker. Which means, yes, I finally got rid of ALL of them. I just filled it up and am bringing it to school again tomorrow. I have the power of tootsie rolls. MUAHAHAHAHA!

    Yesterday I was REALLY out of it. Not joking. Like in advanced algebra...lol. Gale asked me if this is how you do the equation thing, so I'm like yeah. Then she's like, how come I didn't get the same answer as you? I'm like, ummm...because I'm stupid and did this and this and this wrong. lol. Wow. I was like really asleep. hehe. Then I had dog agility, which when kinda badish. Riley was distracted again. He got a lot better through the night though. I had an idea whey he might be distracted, so we are trying that now. Then I went to piano. yay...*twirling of finger happens now*

    Other than that, there's been birthdays all around lately. I do believe if I have this right, it's Chrissy's birthday today? Well even if it isn't, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol. Another thing with birthdays here...Janna? Does your birthday happen to be February 3? I thought I saw that somewheres. I'm not sure.

     
     
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    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    20 October 2005 @ 10:11 am

    People reading this listen up! We need your help getting Dale to win. Go to
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    and vote for Dale please! Dale is my mom's cousin, and we really want him to win. So vote as many times as you can and tell everyone you know! Thanks!

     
     
    See through a person's eyes to their heart
    12 October 2005 @ 04:00 pm

    On a happier note, I am going to post my speech assignment on here, except it's going to be edited a little bit. I'm only doing it because it might make me happier, and it also might help some people out on here, or open their eyes or something.

    First, I give you a list of words:
    Religious             Relaxed                     Kind                           Boastful              Thin-Skinned
    Quiet                  Unfriendly                   Abrasive                      Liberal                Rude
    Tough                 Considerate                Studious                     Selfish                Realistic
    Greedy                Happy                       Mature                        Boisterous          Powerful
    Perceptive           Tactful                       Materialistic                Aware                 Skillful
    Proud                  Selfish                      Free                           Jovial                   Innovative
    Outgoing             Odd                           Straight                       Blunt                  Reasonable
    Tender                 Conservative               Friendly                      Jealous              Tenacious
    Stubborn              Naive                         Controlled                   Careless             Caring
    Timid                   Wishful                      Confident                     Dependable         Wise
    Tense                  Uncomplicated           Thoughtful                    Afraid                  Imaginative
    Loving                  Energetic                   Intelligent                     Modest               Sensitive
    Vulnerable            Aggressive                 Sincere                       Trustworthy          Frank
    Calm                    Cutting                      Bitter                           Vain                   Complex
    Withdrawn            Shy                           Sexy                          Compatible           Reliable
    Trusting                Manipulative                Bright                         Cheerful              Conforming

    Then you take the words that you think describe you and "circle" them. After that, you ask your friends (make sure it's the same words, but not on a new sheet) to circle the words that they think describe you. After this I have to write a summary about it comparing and contrasting the lists, but you get the point. It's kinda unique what you find.

     
     
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